There are many feels when I write this blog post. Very many feels. I remember the day I first met him. Tall, handsome, a little dorky, and a dead sexy voice performed by Troy Baker. All the things a gunslinger or a sage could ask for, except, well, he was a little standoffish. His awkward flirts were endearing for a while, and then became frustrating. Did he have a problem with commitment? He said otherwise, but his actions spoke volumes. And then Yavin 4 happened and how could I not trust those brown eyes staring down at me? But somewhere in my heart, I knew things couldn't last. Not with him. Not that I wished it. It was just a gut instinct.
In heavily story based game play, things of this kind happen. We fall in love with a character only to have the rug pulled out from under us. And sometimes, it actually hurts like a break-up. I hit the end of the train on Umbara and I just sat there in shock. I had heard rumors. I refused to believe them because there was no possible way Theron would betray me. He had been by my side for so many adventures. He had chided me when I tried to kill Senya and Arcann, but loved me anyway. So it was like my guts being wrenched out when I stood there staring at him through the red-hued forcefield as he monologued about the Eternal Alliance and he looked me dead in the eye telling me he was going to kill me.
So here's the stupid thing. I still can't accept for one moment that he truly betrayed me. Despite his assassination attempt, I can't help but feel that something else is going on. I can't put my finger on it. When Lana and I were walking into the cab of the train, he had his gun trained on us the whole time. If he had truly wanted to kill us, that would have been a golden opportunity. But he didn't. When he was ranting about alliances and rotting and takedowns, he still said "I love you, too." And finally, the explosion. Maybe if I had been less skilled, less experienced, I would have died in that train crash. But I wasn't and I know he knew that. That means it was only a cursory attempt on my life. It means he wanted me and Lana to escape. I know he cared for Lana too, having worked with her so long.
The question becomes - now what? If he is truly a traitor, then would I have the strength to destroy him? Would I be weak enough to let someone else do it for me? If he is not a traitor, do I have the patience and faith to wait for his return? Can I forgive him? Do I want to?
Join me tonight on another adventure!
~~~ Scrappywheelz ~~~
